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In my life i have been suicidal 3 times. But this is the first time i have ever talked about it while going through these feelings. I usually only talk about when it happened in the past. And even then not to many or often. Those who think you know who i am, i guarantee you do not. Although the person who talked about it on his personal profile is close to my heart. I would never admit it publicly like that. Too much risk of insurance finding out. Being able to post and talk about it anonymously is the only reason i feel able to even admit it.
Your kind words here have made me cry in more ways then one. Idk why anyone here would care if i died, but i love you all for the thoughts. I'm going to try to live for another week or two. Try to get out of this oblivion of depression that has swallowed my soul. I don't feel like it will help, but i will try. For you.
As someone who survived a suicide attempt I must say its not worth it. It hurt so many people that I loved. I still struggle with mental issues every day some days I don't want to live but I push on. I hope you can learn to cope with your feelings.
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